I have a problem, well, not just one but many. But one of the problems I find difficult to live with is, my body image. It's not that I'm overweight though, it is just I don't feel secure with my body image, cause I just found out that I have nearly 5% fat mass which means I have to lose around 5 kgs, perhaps? Before this my weight is around 52kgs, and recently it could be 3/4kgs higher than that. Gee. That's scary. I hate it when the figure exceeds 55. That is so wrong!
By confessing this, I know you guys might perceived me as ungrateful.
But guess what, it's time for a reality check. People nowadays favor all those skinny girls.
What about us, the not so skinny people? Where do they put us? Skinny people gave some kind of awe-struck and enviness to those who are unlucky, just like me. Well you know why? Why usually that happen? This is because we are human beings. Human beings are constructed to play roles throughout that lifetime, to always avoid negative stereotypes, to always avoid bad image, as much as people say "I don't care about how I look like and what people say", they're just human beings, and they do care as much as I do.
When you're 5 and you're 40kg it does look cute. People adore you.
But when you're 22 and you're 90kg, guess what? You are far from cute.
I feel heavier than my real weight. I go on a diet, drink a herbal teas, less eating those junkfoods,
and walk a lots. Maybe not running. I mean, I walked from the carpark to my class. hehe. And then, you should see the stairs. Yeah, can consider as exercising too, or walking....duhhh!
But I would never do anorexia. Or cutting all those foods to my stomach. Maybe I should join reality show 'The Biggest Loser', should I? But to think of all the cruel excercising, hmm okayyy. But there goes Jillian. Na'ah! Maybe I'll pass! She's a monster.
I want to know an ideal weight for me. When compare to my height, even the doctor suggest I should maintain to 55kg. Wtf??! I am 5''6 (or 166cm) and weighing around 54/55kg. I feel that something is not right. haish.
By confessing this, I know you guys might perceived me as ungrateful.
But guess what, it's time for a reality check. People nowadays favor all those skinny girls.
What about us, the not so skinny people? Where do they put us? Skinny people gave some kind of awe-struck and enviness to those who are unlucky, just like me. Well you know why? Why usually that happen? This is because we are human beings. Human beings are constructed to play roles throughout that lifetime, to always avoid negative stereotypes, to always avoid bad image, as much as people say "I don't care about how I look like and what people say", they're just human beings, and they do care as much as I do.
When you're 5 and you're 40kg it does look cute. People adore you.
But when you're 22 and you're 90kg, guess what? You are far from cute.
I feel heavier than my real weight. I go on a diet, drink a herbal teas, less eating those junkfoods,
and walk a lots. Maybe not running. I mean, I walked from the carpark to my class. hehe. And then, you should see the stairs. Yeah, can consider as exercising too, or walking....duhhh!
But I would never do anorexia. Or cutting all those foods to my stomach. Maybe I should join reality show 'The Biggest Loser', should I? But to think of all the cruel excercising, hmm okayyy. But there goes Jillian. Na'ah! Maybe I'll pass! She's a monster.
I want to know an ideal weight for me. When compare to my height, even the doctor suggest I should maintain to 55kg. Wtf??! I am 5''6 (or 166cm) and weighing around 54/55kg. I feel that something is not right. haish.
p/s : all I want is to grab that Zara dress and say "can I have a size 2 please?" But, for now, it's not even going to fit my arms. darn.
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